They may not be falling snowflakes... but they are snowflakes... and it proves that some things ARE in my f'n control!!!!!
I may not be able to get all the things I want... but some of the things I want I can damn well MAKE happen!!!!! ALL BY MYSELF.
X so bite me fates X
thats right... its ripped jeans, black T-shirt, kick-ass boots and smokey eyes time!!!!! GGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!
Ducks 71 UCLA 66 !!!!!!!
I LOVE MY DUCKS!!!!!
that was some goooood b-ball. 
x whew x
and also.... I've had entirely tooo much caffein for someone my size.... Giggity, giggity...
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and also..... I love my new phone I've never had a phone that does anything and now I have one that does everything x I even sleep with it... But I guess I've always done that alarm clock and such
5 mins FREE BASKETBALL!!!! 55-55!!!
11 mins left. Ducks 47 UCLA 40..... it's gettin LOUD in the Pit!!!! OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
I'm at the duck game right now.... They're wearing pink unis, pink shoes and they're playing like girls!!! actually the scores 28-31 for UCLA at the half but we've kept em on their toes GO DUCKS!!!!! (even puddles is wearing pink) did I mention it's breast cancer awareness night? Thus... All the pink. U of O showing their support of cancer 
xxxxx also Bill Walton is here.
Also did I mention GO DUCKS??!!!!
So... I haven't really done a proper update here for a while.... My life seems so uninteresting and so the same and so not worth talking about... so I don't.... but let me think of something .....
I am liking my business classes at the local college... I am learning lots and making lots of good contacts. It is funny that I come away from each class feeling excited and at the same time completely discouraged by all the things there are to think about and prepare for. and I am so in debt... not just from Uni but from the last year... train tix and working for hardly anything and paying high rent and council tax.... I am SOOOO GRATEFUL for it but financially it was a BIG mistake. And now I am without any capitol or collateral and all I have is debt and a pretty good credit rating... and a pretty good business idea and some good support (the MOA, etc) when I am ready to go. We will see. And everything i am learning will only help when/if i am ready to launch 'the family jewels' as well. Business skills are never a bad thing to have... even if working full time and taking classes is kinda exhausting sometimes. Better busy than idle with too much time to think about shtuff. That is dangerous for me.
And having a full time crap desk job didn't seem quite as bad when i signed up for full benefits the other day.. finally having proper insurance (health, life, accident etc) feels ok. I would get excellent benefits at a museum job too.... but THEY don't want me, do they?
Also I won first place in a contest last week in my class. We were meant to write our business 'mission statement' for homework and then we had a competition... I won Hey... maybe I can get distinction at this flippin' Uni!!!
I am missing my friends a lot lately... but I always do. I don't think that hurt is ever going to stop or even lessen. Not for me. And i am missing my family who is far away. I am so glad to have Boisie close by. so grateful. and her kiddos x 
Beans with her first after the bath turban... see how important Aunties are???? this is vital life knowledge...
I get to see the kids a lot and babysit... we dance a lot... those kids got rhythm and we love to dance to spinning songs...
Beans gets to come on girls day out... lots of make-up and hair and these tiny little hamburgers :O
Beautiful Boisie keeps me from finding the closest bridge.... just by being Boisie. She has bought into my fetish for fun tights... can you tell who is who?
that is about it.... love and stuff x
A night when Scotland honors the poet Robbie Burns by eating Haggis and toasting the poet with Whisky. They also read the poetry which is, as far as i can tell, only understandable if you are a very drunken Scot. I am only part Scot and never drunk enough to comprehend it ;);) heheheeeee....
The last Burns night I went to someone gave Maddy some haggis and she got really sick off it... I told her what it was but she just had to try it !!!!! Isn't that just the way of woogas?
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its my VERY long day tomorrow... hope I can make it... nite, nite XX
I finished work today and met M and D at my fav art/jewelry shop in town... going there is a lot like going to a museum for me... I have to look at each piece very carefully and figure out how they did it and how each bit of it was made... it is like taking apart a painting in my mind... only jewelry. ANYHOOOO. Dad had picked something out for me and gave it to me as we left the shop.
It is a tiny gold faceted bead suspended on a very thin and delicate chain (the pic makes it look soooo much bigger than it is... it is teeeensy). It is by the designers "Dogeared". They have a new line where each piece is meant to symbolize something for the wearer and comes with a card with some words of wisdom.
mine said:
"it's the journey...
there are so many facets in life, like the drop on this necklace...
each time you think one is figured out, several new ones unfold.
wear your necklace as a daily reminder to never give up and to enjoy the life found in the journey."
So I will try harder to be grateful that I have a job... instead of wishing I had the one I want.
and I will try harder to be happy with how my life is going to be... whether it is the way I planned it or dreamed it or not.
X thanks for the gift M and D X i love it X and you X
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