Really don’t like airports much. Reminds me of desperate phonecalls and crying my heart out. And leaving people I really really love. And especially this airport. Got one of the worse emails of my life while in this airport…. The begininngs of the biggest kick to the curb in history. Thus, I do not enjoy this airport. But in a few minutes I’ll b getn on an airplane headed to u hoping not to b struck my lightening again and hoping the fight goes fast xx

eeeee…. i dont like being in this big house all by me onsies this does not bode well come this fall when I will live in this big house all by me onsies for a LOOOOONG time :( double, triple, quadruple frowny faces!!!

my one consolation for tonight…. I will be with you guys tomorrow night many a smiley face

And I still maintain that a house is not a home if there is not a dog in it…. come back sailor and gussy…. come back… come back.

XX

So I havent been watching this seasons American Idol, but tonight was the results show and did watch part of that…they had some good special musical guests

I have to say that I am a little surprised that my favorite was Janet Jackson and her new song ‘Nothing’. It was so pretty and i really liked the lyrics. I did find it a tad bit (and by that i mean REALLY REALLY REALLY) creepy that she sounds even more like Michael than ever!!! Me thought I was seeing Michael alive and in drag!!!! But…. pretty song….

“There’s something I wanna say…
Something that I’ve been holding back.
Can’t let it go another day,
Let me start by saying that…

Nothing, nothing,
Nothing, means more than the truth.

And truth is that I realize, love is fading from your eyes.
Don’t know how it came to this, but we gonna get it fixed tonight.
Cus nothing, nothing,
Nothing, is worth losing you.

Tell me what could the problem be, that’s got you drinking way too much.
What could it be ’bout us?
Don’t you tell me not right now, I can’t let it go.
(I can’t let it go, no I can’t let it go, Oh nooo)

What can I do to help you see,
That there’s no need for jealousy or insecurities?
I’ll do anything you want.

Because nothing, nothing
Should come between us.
Trust in me
Trust in me

We should cherish every moment like it’s the last…
Trust in me
Trust in me

If your issues is with trust, hear me when I tell you this…
No one else has shared my love, no one else has had your kiss.

Nothing, nothing,
Nothing, can make me forget.

(Noooo)

Forget that you’re a good man and I know that you’ve had it hard
Cus you’re more than adequate, you’re more than I wish for.

Nothing, nothing,
Nothing, can make you any less.

Tell me what could the problem be, the past is something I can’t change.
It’s a brand new day.
Don’t you tell me not right now, I can’t let it go.
(I can’t let it go, no I can’t let it go, Oh nooo)

We’ve got to fix this, fix this right this minute.
Only pure love can calm the noise…
Cus baby when we give pure love
Pure love will never come back to us void.

Because nothing, nothing
Should come between us.
Trust in me
Trust in me

We should cherish every moment like it’s the last…
Trust in me
Trust in me”

long day… long week… and it is only Wednesday… dun, dun, duuuun.

But I am so so so excited about getting to spend a few days with the family!!!! Memorial weekend is what is keeping me going at this point I will be able to get away from new job stress, get away from studio worries, get away and be with my family and hold new born babies for the first time and spend time talking to my sibs… sitting around talking… talking, talking… cos that is what Bullock’s do!!! (That… and mafia stuff… some people should consider themselves so lucky that the full wrath of the clan was never unleashed upon them…. BM, et al… lucky, lucky indeed)

know that I am counting the days until i get to see everyone!!! And so glad Boizie gets to be there… and wishing the Sean and Lindsay contingency could be represented x

hopefully the weather will be a bit more on the sunny side than it has been here… straight rain for a week… and 80 FREAKING degrees in Newcastle, my friends are melting…. UNBELIEVABLE!!!! INCONCEIVABLE!!!!! *#@&!!!! STRAIGHT UP UNFAIR!!!!

bring on some warm sunshine please.

we left a bit under the floor… kinda like a time capsule x

one more look pre-floor…

mid job.

I like it.

Maybe some don’t get it… why it has to be grey and stuff… but the perfect space for retouching is neutral… a very neutral grey is the best color for the walls because having the walls this color keeps color from reflecting onto the painting that you are working on… (you have all been in a room that is brightly colored… remember the old salmon colored carpet… that stuff sent pink bouncing all over the rooms it was in…) and that is why I chose the grey/black floors as well…

plus… I just REALLY like the way it all looks  

a photograph is being delivered to the studio tomorrow while I am at my ‘fake job’… the one that actually pays me … hopefully it is a simple removal of the mount board job and remounting onto museum quality board… that I can probably do without consulting a photography conservator.. we shall see…. LOL x 

So I have just been talking to some friends from England and they have gotten an award for their work on a Renaissance panel!!! Very cool. I was lucky enough to work with them both in London for 6 whole weeks!!!! One of the bestest conservation experiences of my life so far  

if you are curious to read about the project here is a link:

http://www.icon.org.uk/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=1218&Itemid=1

and to continue proving that I am a complete nerd… i found out more about the crazy new version of Superman II that I happened upon the other night… apparently there was a completely alternate movie made, different beginning, TOTALLY different ending… and that was what I saw… cos it has been released to the public. I dont like it. AND…. the way the ending is resolved makes the story of Superman Returns completely invalid and impossible. So I double.. triple.. really hate it.

nerdy proof number 5000002.6:

My new shoulder bag… you know for the days that my chole bag needs a rest (LOL)…

closed.

open. hehehee.

And for those of you curious about the new job… It feels good so far. I am not a Pee-On anymore and nobody treats me like one. In fact they all seem a little afraid of me and Jeff says that they will try and pals it up with me so i will put in a good word… funny, after so LONG of being treated like the slave (unpaid and completely unappreciated)… even second best to a ‘better conservator’ (vacuuming up while others inpaint, etc)… now I am an assistant to a big wig… which makes me, by association, at least a big toupee or something LOL.

Since we are in marketing I get my opinion asked for on marketing designs and layouts and I OK art layouts and things for everything from menus to logos to invites and thank you’s… so in a real sense I am getting to use my art and design skills, my extreme attention to detail, and my writing skillls… as I have to proof lots of things as well.

And I am in charge of throwing all the corporate do’s. in June there is a client appreciation night… we are treating them to the Em’s opener game in PK Park!! There will be a picnic before and fireworks after the baseball game and supposably the Ems are pretty good this year well see about that I will throw the corporate Christmas party too.

So maybe it is far from where and what i want to be… but at least it is creative and I don’t feel so used and abused or under-appreciated.  

at least not yet.

X

SUE!!!!!! I just had a brilliant plan!!!!  

Me. You. Timpanogos. August. The training continues…. NOW THATS A MOUNTAIN!!

a day of good news for the family. nothing but relief and happiness for Mikey and Jess. The first to carry on the family name and a good result for baby and Jess. couldnt be happier for Bug, Ladybug and the wee bug (does that make him larvae at this point? LOL.)

I am also making it public that I will be running the Butte to Butte this year. they say when you make a goal public that you are even more likely to accomplish it. So…. tiny Nike shorts from the 1980s…. the ones I wore the LAST time I ‘ran’ the Butte to Butte…. get ready… cos i am getting ready… lol. Just kidding, Id never subject any eyes, human or canine, to that again x No…. instead I will wear Agassis :) x haha.

and lastly, before I goto sleepytown, my favorite place to be…

Dear Universe, my studio is nearly done. Please, please, please…. I have ‘built it’… you said ‘they would come’…. please, please, pleeeeeeeaaaaaaase send me a painting that is NOT on the dreaded and abhorred support called paper, of which i am not trained to treat. Please send me something on canvas or panel that is yellowed, torn and/or very, very dirty… or even in dire need of consolidation… I don’t mind. If you do this Universe, i promise, i will be your very best friend. and I am a VERY GOOD BEST FRIEND!!! Thank you. And good Night.

X

I just got some AMAAAAAAZING news from my bff in England!!!!!!

I dont think I told you guys here… maybe I did but she got an interview for a conservator position in Qatar!!! and the job turned out to be so so so much more amazing than we even anticipated… AND SHE GOT IT!!!!!!!! I knew she would… as soon as I saw the post and told her about it, i knew she would get it. I thought it was perfect for her. I am so proud of her.

I am so so excited for her and hope that she takes it so badly!!! What an adventure and what an incredible opportunity!!!! Im like 100% happy for her and not jealous at all!!! Well maybe 90% happy and 10% jealous…. you know where I am going with this right?? I am DEAD JEALOUS…. but honestly so so happy for her. It is an experience I couldn’t pass up… of course I didn’t even apply, I cant imagine going all the way to Qatar by my onsies… but then I went all the way to England alone…. ANYHOOOOO….. I hope all works out so that she can accept it and get to do the unbelievable things they are offering to let her do.

by the way… i just watched Superman II on TV… has anyone seen this new messed up wacka-doo version they are trying to pass off as Superman II???? Uhhhhh….. huh? 

Sooooo…. 

I am really tired. It was a nearly 11 hour day!!!!! 8 am to 6:50!!! I suppose I used to pull super long days when I was traveling to and from Yorkshire everyday too…. but it feels lots different.

It was good. I really like my new boss a lot. Fact: he is only a year older than me and is the vice president of marketing and sales for 3 major companies and several small ones…. sigh…. we will not dwell on this….

it is a much quieter atmosphere than my job at Summit and it is going to be a lot more varied and require lots and lots more creativity, which makes me happy.

But even better…. mom and dad’s interior designer says she has a client with a painting that has smoke damage and she has taken a fist full of my newly designed and printed cards… (way better than the ones I posted here earlier) so maybe I will get a smokey picture in my studio soon and also I spoke with Ian Cryer on Sunday.. he is an insurance agent (and interestingly enough from Manchester) here in town and he took some of my cards too… he says they work with restoration companies all the time but those companies don’t deal with paintings and that I would be a good contact for them here is hoping. 

I am to dreamland. I am shattered and have to get up early again x

more details later x

love you xx