August 30, 2010

  • I know we are all happy to know that the aged Ps are safe and sound in the land of China… missing them terribly. I was telling someone the other day that it is strange how I feel myself slipping into a state of being that I know all too well… it is the same feeling/state i was in for the year and a half that I stayed in England after I finished Uni and all of my friends had left Newcastle… such a sense of being so alone… and I find myself doing some of the same things I did then… thinking about what i can do to fill my time… looking for things to keep myself busy so I don’t go insane… thinking I need to get out of the house so i feel like i am doing something and then not knowing what to do once I leave it and finding myself aimlessly walking around town or the shops feeling numb and a little bit stupid but trying to imagine that I am accomplishing something…. sigh…. what a horrible feeling being alone is… I am so glad that I am not ever truly alone and that I have family and friends that are there for me whenever I need them xx and I am finding my heart breaking for those people in the world who really are alone and really don’t have anyone… what a terrifying thought, what a sad existence :( I am trying to be better about reaching out to people… keeping connections that are important to me and making new ones… I am trying…

    and I am also lucky to have a job that keeps me so so busy and a studio that keeps me busy in my time off and Boisie close by and friends who will try and fill the void… and lucky that I have two big humongous dogs who fight over who gets to be next to me on the bed and who fight to get the most attention from me :) x

    I know we are feeling a sense of loss having M and D a world away and having it be hard to communicate with them … so if you ever need to… come home :) I am here… we can hike mountains and swim in the sea and ski down mountains and float rivers and talk and laugh and be a family :) I love you guys x as I have said before… I am here if you need me xxxxx 

    More pics of Mom and Dad…..

    so many personalities being expressed in this one pic… hilarious :) :) xx

    X

Comments (4)

  • the hardest part has been when your bummed about something you cant dial 10 digits and hear mommas voice of comfort. Is there an email typing of comfort?

  • @mike_jessbullock - :) maybe soon enough they will have cell phones and we can dial like 25 digits and hear that amazing voice of comfort…. :)  

    and soon my little Mikey you will be that voice of comfort for your little one :) :):) Im getting so excited for the day!!! are you more excited for baby bugs arrival or the duck game???? hmmmmm…. ;) xx love you xx

  • I believe its a mix!! Obviously Im more excited to have rabies (heathers nick name: Raiden+Babies=Rabies!!!) But im pretty pumped that i get to watch my first duck game as a daddy as he watches it on my lap with his hands together in the air making the shape of an “O,” screaming “oooooooooooh” and finishing with a good old fashioned cry!! Can you video chat on yur puter? 

  • @mike_jessbullock - ha ha!!! I love that… rabies :) x he will be so cute :) :) and yeah I can video chat… i gots the iPuter like :) and I can also video e-chat through my gmail :) :) xxxx lets get it running so I can see Rabies :) I kinda like baby bug better :) x goooooood luck tomorrow :) :) xx love you xx

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